She doesn’t want to be here anymore. It hurts so much to see everyone else happy. Everyone else has someone to hold, to love, to depend on and be with.  Why did her comfort have to leave ? Why did it leave and go so so far away and leave her all alone?  Once she got to the other place, it all made sesnse.  But while she was in it, the pain was just so deep and hurt so bad.  Like someone had a held of her heart and squeezed harder and harder never letting her breath.  She’d just cry and cry no one to see the tears. But she need to go numb to survive the other realm.